urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper Sarah Sarah 2006-03-19T19:25:19Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:28630 2006-03-19T19:25:19Z 2006-03-19T19:25:19Z i'm in new orleans for a week. you should all show me some love while i'm gone... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:28354 2005-11-01T06:48:53Z 2005-11-01T06:48:53Z color blind everything that patrick said tonight only helped reaffirm my belief in God. i believe that not everyone is meant to know and comprehend what he has realized recently, but that he is blessed to have that knowledge and has already begun sharing it with others. however, i also believe that if everyone knew what he does, there would be no need for belief in a higher power. that every question would be answered, and that the end would come that much sooner. i don't care if this doesn't make any sense, but i needed to write it down as a documentation of things that i have realized and must share (if there is interest, and not complete ignorance) with everyone. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:28128 2005-08-25T11:33:06Z 2005-08-25T11:33:06Z <img src="http://images.quizilla.com/I/ifeellikerain/1098172056_resultcady.jpg" border="0" alt="Cady"><br>Cady Heron<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/ifeellikerain/quizzes/Which%20Mean%20Girl%20are%20you%3F/"> <font size="-1">Which Mean Girl are you?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:27515 2005-08-22T04:41:41Z 2005-08-22T04:41:41Z well, the inevitable has happened. we were evicted and have to be out of our apartment by the end of the month. the sad thing is that the reasons we are being evicted really aren't our fault. it's only because we let our apartment become a "party house" for all of our friends to take advantage of... i started moving my stuff out already and i'm staying at my mom's house again. it kind of sucks, but i'm so ready to move on. now all we have to $200 a month to start paying off some of my credit card debt, though. ohh, good news, though. i'm going to be an assistant manager at pizza express this year, so i'll be in bloomington on the weekends. woo hoo. as for school, i don't know what i'm going to do. i know that i'm not taking any classes this semester just because i haven't finished paying for last year yet. there's a school in arizona that i really want to go to, but it's way too expensive. i would get to live with my dad, though. it's weird, but i really do miss him. my mom and brother flew to arizona last month to visit him and i was really sad that i didn't get to go. but that's what i get for removing myself from the family... goodness, you can tell that the ADD is kicking in. i can't stay on one topic for more than a sentence. that's ok, i don't really know what else to say anyway... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:27315 2005-07-28T19:19:25Z 2005-07-28T19:19:25Z (and yes, that includes you...)<br /><br />I better see everyone at my house tonight. Why do you ask? For my birthday, of course. <br /><br />Where? At my apartment<br />2205 1/2 E. Main<br /><br />What time? Around Midnight<br /><br />Be there, or I'll hate you... Well, not really, but I'll be really sad urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:26970 2005-07-25T07:39:00Z 2005-07-25T07:39:00Z dork_2002: i just wrote an entire conversation on a cardboard box. i don't know why i'm telling you this, but i just thought that it was pretty interesting. excuse me for being a little fucked up right now. but i guess it's a good thing for you to see now because quite frankily, i do it all the time. i wish you were online right now so i could just tell you all of this instead of waiting for you to get online and respond. i could be waiting for a very long time and i don't know if i'm really willing to do that right now. man, it only took me a few seconds to write this. my fingers are moving faster than i can even process. cool. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:26678 2005-07-25T07:25:02Z 2005-07-25T07:25:02Z the transplants would you like me better if i didn't do all the shit i do now? sometimes i think that that's the answer to everything. that if i just stopped everything we would be okay. but then i realize that that's not the answer. and i don't know what is. is it even worth it, though? if there's nothing that i can do? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:26572 2005-07-20T05:24:51Z 2005-07-20T05:24:51Z he misses me!!!!! &lt;3&lt;3&lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:26182 2005-07-07T06:02:38Z 2005-07-07T06:02:38Z gavin degraw- "Chariot" (Stripped Version) why does life only seem bearable when i'm fucked up? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:26076 2005-07-02T05:25:46Z 2005-07-02T05:25:46Z my cell phone ringing... who could it be :) goodness. i have to get up in five hours to work another day of twelve hours. lisa is snoring, the air conditioner is making funny noises, and i can't sleep. to top it off, i can't stop coughing and sneezing, the charger for my computer is broken, and i only have two hours and twenty minutes left before it is dead. :( on the bright side i can and should think of this as a vacation. i'm in kentucky for the weekend staying in a sweet ass hotel (for free) making a ridiculous amount of money for what seems like very little work. not only are they putting me up in a hotel, they pay for my meals and reimburse me for the gas it took to get down here. a pretty nice summer job. i mean, it's not $22 an hour or anything like some people, but i'm not doing any hard labor :) <br /><br />other than that, life is pretty boring. we might be moving out of our apartment because our landlord isn't very happy with us, and it kind of sucks having to pay the extra money since mike moved out. however, the neighbors below us moved out a couple of days ago, so we really don't have to worry about being all that quiet anymore. i would love to stay in the apartment, but there are so many other factors and everything that just make more sense than paying rent and everything. i don't even know if i'm going to be here by the end of august. i've been accepted into the scottsdale culinary institute and i'm supposed to start august 22nd. it's a really expensive school, though, so i don't even know if i'll be able to afford it. i still haven't even paid off IU or IU East...<br /><br />anyway, i thought that an update was in order considering i haven't talked to many people in a while and i haven't written anything in here in forever. but i think this shall suffice. hopefully i'll have more eventful news to write about later... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:25759 2005-05-27T07:19:21Z 2005-05-27T07:19:21Z benjamin tucker is my favorite person in the entire world :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:25398 2005-05-22T07:42:09Z 2005-05-22T07:42:09Z jennifer knapp- "undo me" something needs to change. and i don't know what it is. i don't know if it's me or everyone else. i hate sounding depressed everytime i write anything on here, but i haven't really been happy in a while. anyway, i'm going to start with myself. i haven't decided what i'm going to do, or what i need to do, but something needs to be done. (vague, huh?) i wish i could just get away for a little while. just detach myself from everyone just for a little bit. i don't know if it'll help, but it sounds really good right now... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:25230 2005-05-05T09:08:09Z 2005-05-05T09:08:09Z whatever ben is playing in the other room... fuck you. fuck you and you and you... i don't need this. i don't deserve this. i'm better than this and fuck you for thinking that you can use me and take advantage of me. i would have done anything that you would want. that's who i am. but you fucking abused it. and that's bullshit. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:24909 2005-05-01T12:52:24Z 2005-05-01T12:52:24Z goodness. so much shit has been going on. i don't even know what to do anymore. i'm starting to think that i just shouldn't think about it anymore. just let it happen or whatever, and stop worrying about anything. i doubt that it will work very well, though, because that's just not the kind of person that i am... meh, whatever. we'll see what happens... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:24668 2005-04-26T11:02:32Z 2005-04-26T11:02:32Z john mayer- "daughters" i'm sorry to do this, but it's something that needs to be done...<br /><br /><br />i can't take it anymore. i'm not happy with who i am. who i've become. it wasn't supposed to be this way, end up this way. i wish i could go back to a time when i knew who i was, what i was doing, and what i wanted to do. but i can't. and it's taking everything i have to accept that fact. i don't know what to do. i don't know what it will take to find some place, some feeling where everything seems to be alright. if only for a moment. i hate that i'm becoming a college drop-out. i hate that i keep everything inside. i never let anyone see what i'm thinking, what i'm feeling. i hate that i'm on bad terms with my parents. i hate that my dad is leaving in two days and i'll only get to see him twice a year. i hate that moving out seems to have been a mistake. i hate that i let people take advantage of me. and i hate even more that i know it is happening and don't do anything about it. i let it happen. like i don't know any better. any different. i hate that while i proclaim independence, i am completely dependent upon other people. i can't think for myself. i can't live for myself. i can't even be myself. god. i don't even know what i'm saying. i don't know why i'm doing this. it's just thoughts that have been tearing me apart and i need to get them out. even if they don't make any sense. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:24328 2005-04-26T07:13:24Z 2005-04-26T07:13:24Z i wish i were more interesting... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:24207 2005-04-23T01:36:42Z 2005-04-23T01:36:42Z so, how about my dad got a job and is moving to arizona in a week... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:23868 2005-04-22T10:11:52Z 2005-04-22T10:11:52Z tori amos- "cornflake girl" it's raining.<br />i want to play in the rain.<br />but it's cold.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i think i'll do it anyway. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:23637 2005-04-21T11:30:11Z 2005-04-21T11:30:11Z murder by death blah, blah, blah... that's all i can really think right now. i just thought it was worthy of an entry... woo :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:23508 2005-04-19T08:12:17Z 2005-04-19T08:12:17Z i hate that i do this... i'm sick of it. i don't want to do it anymore. but being the worlds biggest jpush-over that i am, i can't help it. i even practiced saying, "fuck that shit" to everyone but it isn't really working right now... it sucks, and it's pissing me off. i hate that i let everyone take advantage of me. (holy shit, this is so fucking hard. i can't believe that i can even type right now...) anyway, i don't know what else there is to say except that i don't want to do this anymore. i don't care what it means that i have to give up, but i'm sick of everyone thinking that i have to get fucked up all the time. whether it be one way or another. i done with all of it. and i guess i'm done with anyone that doesn't believe in me or support me. it just makes me sad that that means that i might lose you... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:23183 2005-04-18T23:36:59Z 2005-04-18T23:36:59Z badly drawn boy- "year of the rat" i'm tired of going up and down. from the best day of my life to the worst... i wish there were just some happy medium that i could have everyday. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:23004 2005-04-13T03:15:00Z 2005-04-13T03:15:00Z ray charles- "when a man loves a woman" life is good right now... there has been some drama, but i really think that everything will work out. for everyone. anyway, i'm going to bloomington for the week to make lots of money... i'll be back on sunday :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:22535 2005-03-31T13:45:58Z 2005-03-31T13:45:58Z :) that's all i can say... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:22209 2005-03-14T23:09:40Z 2005-03-14T23:09:40Z punk covers... yeah, that's right. we got it. as of tomorrow, the apartment of our dreams is all ours... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icecreamscooper:21623 2005-03-08T01:44:59Z 2005-03-08T01:44:59Z tori amos- "mother revolution" tire swings are my most favorite thing in the entire world...